by Liame Ivy
I know you said you would reach out
and I am patient.
I am letting you know that I…
I am thinking of you
not only greatly
but deeply.
And I cannot seem to stop
my focus
from shifting
when your name comes to my mind.
And in all my experiences
with all intensity
I have never professed my feelings
legibly
this soon.
I am overwhelmed
with all this love
I want to give…
to you.
I am dancing with the thought
of being your home
and peace
and being the one thing
you want to run to
immediately
your done with work.
I cannot stop hearing
you call me
baby.
And it is torturous
knowing
I will not
and cannot
hold you tonight…
such a void you left
after filling one.
I guess the long short of it is
I miss you.
I miss you
desperately.
The grip I have on myself
not to text you
grows precarious
by the hour.
And it bothers me
how much I wish
I smelt you longer,
talked more,
laugh harder.
Trees swing.
Waters flow.
The airs blow.
But somehow
I do not get to kiss you tonight.
How unnatural is that?
I really really miss you.
And not one moment
have I not regretted
existing
without you…..
I am scared
of fragility
and vanity
and in this context…
temporaries….
I am scared
that perhaps it was a trance for you
and a dream for me.
A dream
I wish I had right now
if our memories
and essence
would stop haunting me
this night.
It is a valid fear
yet it is not stopping me
from spewing this nonsense…
I miss you
so
so
much….
